Thursday, March 11, 2010

Real life goes on despite...well, you know



Decisions decisions decisions decisions...oh sorry...thinking out loud. Today and possibly tomorrow and maybe even the next two days are days of making decisions.
I would like to think that it was going to be easy but there is always some little issue, some nagging detail, some microscopic "what if" that throws the whole thing into chaos....making the easiest decision a life changing one...maybe I exaggerate a little.
There are many voices...mostly the ones in my head...sharing their opinions...but I think there are really only 3 I should listen to and then narrow it down to two and then one and then...well, then I will fill with doubt and start over. That's how I roll.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Book



I caught a cold somewhere and today is the worst of it so far. At first I thought that maybe something in Vacaville was blooming...some strange flower, weed, bush, tree...something.. and that is what was making my nose run and making me sneeze.
But alas, when I got home I found that my son was having the same symptoms and that we were just the fortunate recipients of a nice head cold. He however has the immune system of Vitamin C itself...if Vitamin C was a living breathing person...(oh my gosh I think I am hallucinating). I, on the other hand, have little to no immune system left and am having a much harder time. Think of a whale and then think of a piece of plankton...the whale is my son's immune system and the plankton is mine (oh it's official now...and I am not even taking any cold medicine)
I think I was telling you about the cold because that was my excuse for sitting on my rear all day and working on my book....it's about a guy who is the son of a potato farmer in Ireland, and he falls in love with the wealthy land owner's daughter...and then the landowner finds out and then there is a potato famine....oh, wait, that is the OTHER book I am writing. This book is the one about my experiences and lessons through stupid cancer. It's gonna be goooooood. You just wait....you'll laugh, you'll cry....
I am still working on that other book, and a HUGE paint by number, and a family cookbook,and I am crocheting a scarf....
Haaaaaaachoooooooooo! Ok that does it...I am taking my tissues with lotion back the the bedroom and lay down.

Monday, March 8, 2010

The plane has landed



Hi everyone! Long time no see : )
Well our plane landed safely on Saturday night...we found a ride home from the airport thanks to one of Andy's great friends.
It was a fabulous trip...one I will never regret taking...ever..I cant wait to tell you what happened...oh wait...yes I can.
Talk to you later.
xo

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Saturday in Vacaville





Yes, I am in Vacaville...Vacaville, California.....it's a long story..we will get to that later..I promise...seriously...I will...
I am here with my brother...we have been here since last Thursday. It has been an experience I will never ever ever never never ever never ever forget.
Just one of the experiences I had yesterday..just one of the many experiences I have had, was meeting Christa Black. Yes, that is a picture of Christa Black. Look her up on you tube....search for Black Monday...
Christa and I are Now BFF's....ha...not really...however she is BFF caliber...she is funny..irreverent..wears the cutest boots..writes songs and gives them the best titles...all the things I look for in a best friend...ha..not really...ok..sorta..but most of all she is REAL and BEAUTIFUL...not just because she has legs that start somewhere in middle earth and keep going...or because she wears this cool shirt that zips up the back..or that her hair starts from the upper atmosphere and stops near her waist..(forgive my issues with being shorter and losing my hair as a result of the cancer). She is beautiful because she reflects amazing love. Oh and she can SING...wow she can sing...
We talked and high-fived and exchanged email address...well hers is her name with .com after it...duh..
Anywho, I dare you to not like her. More later...

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Manners





Yesterday, or should I say last night, there was an incident....a rather large incident I am sorry to say....big enough for me to miss watching American idol. It had to do with using good manners....and common decency....and expectations....a dangerous combination as I have discovered. Such a reminder that real life still goes on despite the cancer.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Holy protein Batman!


I have been spending a lot more time with super mom lately. She rides along to most of my appointments with me, carrying my bag that has my little laptop in it and saving me a seat in the waiting room while I have my lab work done, watching over my purse and coat so I don't have to haul them with me, and driving the car from the parking space to the hospital entrance so I don't have to walk too far. Then she drives us to lunch somewhere or to the store if I need something, or to Dairy Queen if I need "something", or back to her house, or sometimes she drives just so I can make all my phone calls to everyone who wants an update.

Another thing super mom does is encourage me to eat protein all the time...she tells me that it is what our bodies need in order to heal. I, on the other hand, think lemon/ginger scones are more healing, but that is only because I love both lemon and ginger....and frosting.

But super mom is actually right this time. I know because I checked on the Internet...which never lies by the way. Here is what it said:

Protein: A large molecule composed of one or more chains of amino acids in a specific order determined by the base sequence of nucleotides in the DNA coding for the protein.
Proteins are required for the structure, function, and regulation of the body's cells, tissues, and organs. Each protein has unique functions. Proteins are essential components of muscles, skin, bones and the body as a whole.
Examples of proteins include whole classes of important molecules, among them enzymes, hormones, and antibodies.
Protein is one of the three types of nutrients used as energy sources by the body, the other two being carbohydrate and fat.

Now I realize that I can no more heal myself by eating protein then my kids can avoid having an argument for 5 solid minutes....but I digress...
What I do know though, is that I need to do my part...but here is the amazing spooky part of this story....the most important protein for healing is known as Laminin. I know this because it was on the Internet and the Internet, as I mentioned before, does not lie. Here is what it said:

Basically, laminin is a protein found in the “extracellular matrix”, the sheets of protein that form the substrate of all internal organs also called the “basement membrane…. Laminin is vital to making sure overall body structures hold together. Improper production of laminin can cause muscles to form improperly...In layman's terms, a laminin is like a foundation of a building, a chassis of a car.
In short, laminin is like the glue that holds us together.

It's Laminin that is the basis of our bodies being able to heal...and here is what Laminin looks like isolated under the microscope:







That's what I'm talkin' 'bout!!!!!!! Coincidence....I think not.

quick blog before the blog



I have been married to Mr Gadget for almost 21 years. During those years of bliss we have accumulated 1,948 electrical cords. Each cord only fits one thing. Ok that's a lie..extension cords don't count....make that 1,944 cords that only fit one gadget each. Most of these gadgets we don't even own anymore OR they no longer work OR they are dead because for some reason we can't find the cord that charges them.
I love things that make my life easier...I HATE CORDS...but cords are what bring the things that make my life easier to life.....I still HATE cords...always will.

Thank you for listening...I am now able to move on.